That ye might have peace

“These things I have spoken unto you that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation; but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.” St John 16:33

We all know about tribulation. It is all around us, but if we believe in Christ we “might” have peace. What you mean that it doesn’t just come automatically? No. For if you truly believe then you will do all the things he asks of you? Right? Nope!

 After Edward died I went through a period of time where I just went through the motions. I attended my meetings but often I slept through the entire thing.  I read my scriptures, but it was like yah, yah, I’ve read this before and it hasn’t changed.  The fact is we cannot stand still. We have to be actively engaged in the work of the Lord. One day I ran into a dear friend at Walmart. He saw right through me and knew how far I had fallen. He gently chastised me and I was like, yah, yah, I know all that that. So every once in a while he would call to check up on me.   

Now I could have told that so called friend to buzz of and leave me alone. I believe the scriptures. I believe in Christ.  I’m trying to do the right thing, so go away and leave me alone. The decision was mine and I made the decision to become anxiously engaged.   I have to admit that it wasn’t just that one friend. There were others, a visiting teacher and former Relief Society President, former Bishops, other neighbors and friends who influenced me. 

The strongest influence probably came from those who have gone on before me, my husband Edward, my son Eddie who died at the age of 28, my dad the person who taught me to forgive (others and as well as myself), and my grandparents. I remember so clearly Grandmother Mellie Stearns in her old rocking chair next to the west window catching the last rays of sunlight with which to read her Bible. I want to be with them again someday and thank them for all they have done for me.  That is peace.