The Just Live by Faith

I awoke this morning anxious and a little fearful of the challenges I face today. My scripture study today took me to Hebrews 10:36 & 38.  “For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise…  Now the just shall live by faith.”    And so today I will do that which I can do and leave the rest to God.  Have I not had great and marvelous blessings given to me in the past? I remember a time when Edward was working in Michigan and I was stuck in Illinois waiting for the house to sell. It went on for seven months and I was as anxious and full of fear as I am this morning.

In the depth of my despair a dark spirit came upon me taunting me for trusting in God .  So deep was my depression that for a moment I thought how easy it would be to give in and slip into the darkness. “No!”I couldn’t do it, because I know God lives. I know he is aware of me, that he loves me. The moment I made that decision the darkness dissipated. Warmth and light filled me and the room on that cold snowy November day. We got the answer we were waiting for that very day.

I remember a day after Edward died when I had decided I’d had enough. I wanted to end it all – to go to sleep and not wake up. The phone rang. I answered. It was a dear friend hurriedly putting supper on the table for her family so they could rush off to some school activity. She just felt the need to call me she said. “Oh, I’m fine,” I lied. While she’s talking to me I can hear the sounds of a busy family. Ever so often she would give some instruction. “Go change your shirt. No, not that one.” And to another child she said, “Go comb your hair.” And to another, “No, don’t start that game. We need to leave as soon as we eat.”   

All she did was talk to me at a time that was inconvenient to her, but it got me past that point of no return.  And so this day I remember those experiences and I will face my fears, be patience and do the will of God that I might receive the promises I have been given 

 I know God lives and that he keeps his promises.